It is where just a little
sunshine will make you forget everything that could ever cause misery.
It is where the mountains tower
above and the ocean gushes below.
It is where there is no end to
the rain, but always a silver lining in the clouds.
It is where I fell in love with
the everythings in life – work, family, friendships and even myself.
The beauty that this place holds
within itself doesn’t just emanate from the gorgeous geography that surrounds
it, but it’s very spirit – freedom! You can be anything, become anyone and do what
you truly want.
I can hear the drum circle of the
summers near the beach thrumming in my ears as I write this. I can see the pride
parade happening, painting the city streets in the hue of the rainbow. I can
feel the snow falling on my windowsill. I remember the UBC President crushing
it in a foosball match and celebrating it with the excitement of a teenager.
I admit I had to wait for the
summer to truly love the place, I arrived a day after a bad thunderstorm and
all I saw through jetlagged eyes was grey and rain and cold. Also, the
realization that this time I was away from home, for a good long period had hit hard. What
saw me through the dreary first day was the many pairs of hand to help me drag
my luggage to my room, several welcome notes and an immediate emergence of the people
who would eventually become my support systems here. When I had a full
conversation in Hindi (or as my friend called it Urdu) the first night in
Vancouver, the turbulence in my mind was lulled. Or maybe it was pure
exhaustion (after a 20 plus hour flight you’re not sure anymore!)
This was the first time I was
doing graduate school, in an education system vastly different from India. I
didn’t know what to expect. I had interned in Canada before, but Vancouver and
UBC were very different from Windsor. There, I chose to spend my summer within
walking range of the lab, here I had to set up my life for a two-year period so
I had to get around. And around in a much bigger place. This brings me to the
transit system – it IS the best in North America, well probably after NYC. Also,
a blessing to people like me who don’t drive, anytime spent away from Vancouver
in North America was a big hassle in terms of getting around and I remember
cursing myself for procrastinating learning to drive (which I still haven’t
done, note to myself!)
UBC had never been my first
preference for graduate school, and yet it turned out to be the decision that
was in most sync with previous ones in my life – rebellious, troublesome and
difficult. Looking back, I should’ve understood that I would feel right at home
there! My supervisor team grew from one to two in a year and this
collaboration, as contentious it might be, was the best thing that could’ve
happened academically to me. I got the best of both fundamental and applied
aspects of my research. The hair wrangling 4 am lab work seemed trivial in the
light of exciting new discoveries. I learnt the most important thing about
being an independent researcher – starting with the right questions. The time
spent on researching literature to make sound testing hypotheses is perhaps the
biggest thing that can make or break your project. As my lab manager used to
joke about the white hairs on his head (the ones he had left anyways!), was
that each of them was earned through a lesson learnt from a mistake in
research. His advice was to avoid the mistakes that you could, read - even though
it was boring and it’s hard resisting the call of the eppendorfs and delay the
white hairs for as long as you could. The latter aspect attracted me the most
and so I stuck with it.
The day I left my work station
was when the tears broke out (I had been avoiding the farewell feeling all
together bravely my last week there). I accepted I was a nerd through and
through. A nerd who loved what she was doing. A nerd who would not trade her
research for all the wishes in the world (at least in that moment!). I consider
myself fortunate for having experienced this feeling, it is a love so fierce,
so moving, so possessive – I wasn’t even ready to share it with my friend who
offered to hug me in the bus on my way back. I said no and kept staring out the
window, I wanted to be alone with it. Neither my thesis defense, nor my
graduation (both happy and satisfying in their own places) had given me the
happiness that comes with realizing your calling in life. This moment had.
Vancouver and the people that
became a part of my life from this journey taught me many things. The campus and
the city is one of the most diverse, inclusive and culturally appropriate
atmospheres I’ve ever encountered. It was the first place where the friends I
made didn’t care about where I was coming from, but what I brought to their
lives. I learnt to overcome my “mental compartmentalization reflex” of categorizing
and judging everything. I started thinking about everything that I encountered
and every person I met as the first page of a story that I had yet to discover.
My world was no longer limited to people from my country or engineering. It had
become much bigger and diverse. Being able to communicate effectively had
barriers far beyond language, culture or intellect. It required awareness,
patience and inquisitiveness. It was a steep curve to climb and I did stumble
on the way to be politically correct, even though I meant no harm to people I
might have unknowingly offended. It was
also frustrating to dispel myths about India (or what was supposed to be “Indian”),
but when I found myself holding many stereotypes, many times it just became
lack of knowledge. I used these opportunities to learn and to educate someone
on my take on “being Indian”. I developed a real appreciation for the enormity of India’s diversity in culture,
languages, traditions, festivals when someone asked me,
“Well, what is representative of
India then?” and I didn’t have a good answer. (I guess I will never, but might
probably address this in a future blog article)
You can catch a beautiful sunset
in Vancouver. You can celebrate without feeling overwhelmed. You can eat the
best cheesecake in the world and listen to jazz at the same time (I can vouch
for that!). It’s a necessity to have a passion for the outdoors and be good on
your foot (it’s worth it every hike, every trek and every run you make!). Also,
don’t forget the umbrella and rain gear.
There is something magical about
the place that you can’t deny. Maybe I felt it because there were times I was at peace with myself, my identity, my
positives and negatives. I don’t know if it was Kung Fu panda-level inner
peace, but it meant a lot to me. In one of my best friend’s word, I felt “wholesome”
Usage: Adjective
Uplifting to the point of filling one with warmth - Jewel Joy
Ocampo
धन्यवाद. Thank you. Спасибо. Salamat. متشکرم. Merci beacoup. Gracias. شکریہ. cảm ơn bạn. 谢谢.
Everyone who made this journey possible and what it had been. Words would never be enough to sum up what Vancouver and the people I met there are to me. (hopefully I will have my planned sitcom released in this lifetime!) And to everyone who is hesitating
whether to say yes to an adventure or not – well carpe diem folks!
Umda! 👌
ReplyDeleteKung Fu Panda level bhi aayega! Just keep following your call :D
Thanks...will do :)
ReplyDeleteFinally got to read this.. Amazing piece
ReplyDeleteQuite a nice way to sum up the "Vancouver" experience